I’m human I’m gonna fuck up

and it sucks that people have the ability to cut you off because of stupid decisions that you’ve made and I wish I could not give a fuck but I’m not that person. Say you’re mad at me say there’s a problem. Ignoring me just helps build my insecurities and I know that’s not your problem but it doesn’t make it suck any less. I feel like fucking nothing, for what?????? It doesn’t make any sense to me. How can you do that to someone?????? I’m sorry that I’m always confused when you talk to me but no one talks to me like that so can you give me a break???? I just want to understand I just want to know why this is happening to me. Did I fuck up that bad in a past relationship that now I’m doomed for eternity to suffer emotional damage at the hands of other women? I’m fucking sorry!!!! I don’t know what else I have to do to get that across! I’m sorry for being a complete fucking freak sometimes and confusing the fuck out of you! I don’t do it on purpose I swear I’m not. And I’m not writing this begging for a response. I swear I’m not. You said you’d stop looking at my blog and I hope that was true. I don’t want to keep feeling like I’m constantly annoying you. But you know what, that’s how I feel. And I really like you. That’s why this sucks so much.

I’m venting. Not trying to offend anyone. So please try not to come at my neck. Cuz that also sucked.

swaggeronblast:

I’m not anyone’s first choice. I’m not anyone’s favorite. People may tell me I mean a lot to them and that I’m special to them but I know there’s someone they will always choose over me.

thewhoreat221b:

does anybody else just say “no” out loud in a deadpan voice as they exit out of bad fic or is that just me